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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|07:29 am] |
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Its so nice to know that so many of my friends watch my LJ for an update... Clearly by all the comments I get in it everyone is watching it... And this one is probably not gonna be seen by anyone BUT myself so yeah,I feel like a looser.
Asides from that Ive been having some werid issues with some friends over mateship and all that and as of today, I'm totally depressed over the whole thing and a bunch of various things
I'm sick of my life being one big fucking EMO shit show for all the little EMO kids to come and play in. I'm fucking sick of my life being a joke and totally sucking, I'm sick of it all. |
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[May. 28th, 2005|12:40 am] |
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Rairaikouku
Your the last Champion of Draconic Heaven! or your
would have been if Kohei hadn't of creamed you
this year
Which Dragon drive DRAGON are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
I'm interested lol.
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[Apr. 28th, 2005|07:33 pm] |
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 | You scored as Angel. Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.
Angel | | 75% | Mermaid | | 25% | Dragon | | 25% | Faerie | | 25% | Demon | | 25% | WereWolf | | 17% | </td>
What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
created with QuizFarm.com |
Apperntly because I dont like shiny things or eating food raw or burnt to a crisp, I'm not as dragon.... Hmm, interesting theory. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2005|02:18 am] |
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Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male |
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
ooooook...
You Are A Romantic |
You are more romantic than 90% of the population.
You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do! |
Only 90%!!!!
Your Passion is Yellow |
You're a total sexual shape shifter.
You possess a complex sex drive and are very adaptable.
Of all the colors, you are the most likely to be bisexual.
While you the most passionate, you are very open minded. |
:)
Your Element Is Earth |
You excel at planning and strategizing.
You could be a champ at chess or Survivor.
Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize.
On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you.
You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through.
Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.
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This is SO me
You Will Die at Age 70 |
70
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well. |
Thats just fine, I dont want to be an old crippled man who can barely move... |
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| some friends you know |
[Apr. 10th, 2005|01:57 am] |
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I have this one friend IRL who you know.... Is a bit ackward. He always is saying I'm his best friend yet he never gives me the due respect deserved, even in the better times. Neways we always hang out and you know, we do it as often as we can. So, I stayed home last night instead of going to the bar with him because I hadnt talked much with my mate. I find out he didnt and went and hung with a friend and told him the reason why I didnt come out. He said that I'm pussy wipped by someone I dont even know and that when I do meet him everyone else is going to get excluded.
As you can see, you can tell why I say he is a bit ackward. I hang out with him like every fucking time he asks me to and the one god damn night I decide to spend some time with the one I love and he fucking says this shit. I'm getting a little tired of this pettiness and all this bull shit from him and the rest of my so called "friends." Even though he pretty much is the only one locally I basically know and hang out with now. Sad as it is, when I think about it, he is the only one locally I hang out with and you know what, I dont give two shits!
All I ask for is a little respect and some fucking understanding. I hang with him whenever I can and exclude my mate so I can hang with him. I think he can live for one night without me and then not take out his anger on me. Like what the fuck. One night I say I dont want to hang out and its the end of the world. He hangs out with the one he loves a lot and often lies to me about shit so he can hang out with them, yet I dont get mad about it. What about these money issues? I lend him money, I ask for it back, I usually get a lot of flak about asking for it. He lends me money, he wants it back right away. Its always gotta be his way.
Neways, thats all I have to say. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2005|08:53 pm] |
Your Element Is Air |
You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.
Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.
You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!
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[Feb. 11th, 2005|03:01 pm] |
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This is neat...
LJ Friends Meme by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) coolerq• You must tell 2 people about this game.
• DraconZero is the one that you love.
• xenox is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Scott.
• Jeremy is the one who knows you very well.
• Phil is your lucky star.
• Highway to hell is the song that matches with DraconZero.
• 99 red balloons is the song for xenox.
• Drain the blood is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Like it is is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz |
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[Jan. 28th, 2005|07:44 pm] |
Fill it in in a comment.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...?
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
» I died:
» I cried:
» I said something stupid:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY..?
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Body:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
- Who are you?
- Are we friends?
- When and how did we meet?
- How have I affected you?
- What's your honest opinion of me?
- What's the fondest memory you have of me?
- How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
- Do you miss me when I'm not around?
- Do you love me?
- Have I ever hurt you physically/emotionally?
- Would you attack me?
- Would you hug me?
- Would you kiss me?
- Would you fuck me?
- Are we close?
- Are we close enough?
- Why or why not?
- Emotionally, what stands out?
- Do you wish I was cooler?
- On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
- Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
- Am I loveable?
- Am I huggable?
- How long have you known me?
- Describe me in one word.
- What was your first impression?
- Do you still think that way about me now?
- What do you think my strength is?
- What do you think my weakness is?
- Do you think I'll get married?
- What about me makes you happy?
- What about me makes you sad?
- How often do you think of me?
- What reminds you of me?
- What's something you would change about me?
- How well do you know me?
- Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
- Do you think I would kill someone?
- Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? |
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[Dec. 26th, 2004|07:59 pm] |
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It seems my journal has become my own personal ranting area so, why not keep it up.
As all of you had seen, the chaos that was cuased by that one group who severly misunderstood what I was saying and if they didnt, then thats just fine. What really pisses me off is when these morons feel they have to come and start shoving their shit up my ass. I get a lot of useless crap coming out of my ass as it is and I dont need theirs added to it.
I was reading through that communities comments on the link they had to my post and I found it a bit humerous. There were some there saying "yeah its these weird guys that make the rest of us normal furries look bad." So what the fuck is a normal furry. Your average dumbass who likes to pretend to be a furry or one of the cool furries who everyone wants to be, like the cool kids in school. Wow I'm amazed at your clear understanding of this, I'm glad you see things exactly how they are. Congradulations, your officially a dumbass.
Then theres the rest of them saying how they are so tired of see us otherkin guys talk about our stuff? The hell? What is that suppose to mean? You mean your so tired of hearing us talk amungst ourselves about what happens in day to day life, our belifs and then bitch about problems and all that. Well arnt you just the fucking hypocrite. This is what YOU do in your regular day to day life so stay the fuck out of mine or I'll start adding stupid comments to yours that just might make sense unlike your stupid comments!
Umm what else here, oh yeah, maybe if you guys got some common sense, develeped a sense of logic then you might understand where I'm coming from, but I dont expect any of you to grow that stuff any time soon.
So for now, if your reply involves something along the lines of saying you have tonns of logic because you went to school and got a 90 in physics or I'm the idiot because I cant spell then dont even bother posting a comment because the point flew over your head so badly you didnt even see it. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|07:15 pm] |
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Yes, we all have parents. Weather they dumped us in the street after we were born or still live with them and know them today, we all have parents. Some parents are very nice and accepting to their kids, others not. What am I confused about? I'm confused weather my parents will take what I'm about to tell you properly or just look at me as a freak.
So, I believe I was a dragon in a last life. Theres issue number one. I always hear my mom going on about people who believe stuff like that are all part of a cult and cults lead you to the wrong things. Right, now this really makes me want to tell her. I want to come flat out with my parents and let them know about this so I can talk about it with them and, I unno, I just feel I should tell them. Then when I think about the results, I'm quite turned away from telling them. If I gathered the balls to go to my parents and say "hey, I believe I was a dragon in a last life and still have a spirit of one(or mostly made of dragon)." What kind of response would this get me? Uhh... Probably not a very good one yet they always seem to try and understand me and be nice about things yet when I told my mom that I used to smoke weed, she lost it. She freaked out completely, and I really was regretting ever telling her. So why would she do this? I am having the guts to let her know that I used to smoke weed because I love her and trust that she wouldn’t overreact and the I get this shit. My dad, really didn’t care. Why? I unno, he can be pretty mellow and also because he was a stoner too. Crist you should hear some of the stories I get from him about his youth and all that. He at least realised the fact that I was giving up smoking weed and moving on in life like he did.
I also have a 16 male who I consider my soulmate and honestly wouldn’t mind SCREWING him beyond his wildest goddamn dreams. I love him so much that us both being male and the fact of him being "fat" doesn’t matter to me at all. I mean sure, it would be nice if he was female but it really doesn’t bother me this much. Now I wanna tell my parents I have found someone I truly love. If I did, they would go "oh great Chris! What’s her name?" and I would go 'Umm.. Err... She really isn’t a she you know...' and then have to tell them that I love another guy. That’s right mom and dad, I like another guy for who is and not what sex he is. My mom is also always going on about how she hopes I'm not gay like all my friends. Because you know, all my friends are gay all right. Yup, one of them turns out to be gay and their all gay and I hang with the wrong people. Yep, you got that right. Now if I told them this, I think my mom would probably look at me with less trust and compassion and my dad would stare at me for half an hour before retreating to the garage to try and find something to work on and pretend he didn’t hear what I just said. Why would he do this? Well he doesn’t mind that gay people are gay, as long as they dont shove it in his face. He doesn’t agree with it and rather shuns upon them but treats them as humans. Now him finding his son is gay would probably send him on some kind of reality trip and probably get over it but still never look at me as the same
The only two goddamn people in my family that would accept this as a fact and not care about it would be my two sisters. My older would be like "I dont care, whatever works for you." and my younger one is just too young to understand and probably wouldn’t give two god damn shits until someone told her having a gay brother is discussing. Now, I know this will sound contradictory, but I ain’t gay. Sure I wouldn’t mind getting it on with my soulmate but that’s only for him. Any other male-male sex is a big turn off for me. Its discussing, it makes me want to puke. I'm not saying others can’t enjoy that but it’s defiantly not my thing. I think the only reason I wouldn’t mind doing him is because I love him so damn much.
So what the hell do I do here? If I dont tell my parents I'll probably just feel like shit and if I tell them... I honestly dont know what would happen, I really dont and I am not too sure I want to take the risk of adding more stress into my life that I do not need if it turns out wrong. Please, someone tell me what the hell I am suppose to do. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|12:36 am] |
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Is it just me, or does it seem that every time someone sticks up for their friends that they get targeted as the bad guy then after thats all done, your friend and the guy who was supposidly an asshole become good friends?
I'm getting sick and tired of sticking up for my friends then only to find that the one I was insulting on behalf of my friend is actually a really nice person and that my friend screwed up details and now there is little to no hope of me getting to know the person. THEN my friends have the nerves to talk about how nice the person is later on after they fix things up with them! What the fuck eh? This is bull shit.
This really pricks at my ass and pisses me right the fuck off. I'm only sticking up for a friend of mine who fucked up on details and then I get labled as the bad guy. This is fucking fair right here. So from this point on, I aint sticking up for my friends any more unless it gets really serrious and ugly. I know I'll probably just contracdict myself on this and stick up for my friends anyways no matter what but this is just how I feel. |
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| Crappy gifts for my mom |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|01:56 pm] |
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| | Slayer- Payback | ] |
After I got everyone elses gifts with my mom, I got my dad to take me out to get for my mom (this was last week). So he takes me to god damn Zellers to get her stuff. He had already bought her most of the things I wanted to get her and was too lazy to drive into Edmonton so I could get her some really good stuff she would want. Instead, he said that express coffee maker was a good idea and the sicors for her birthday on boxing day. YEAH! Theres good gifts.
I really wanted to get her something nice this year and when I get everyone else something nice and my mom a bunch of fucking bull shit I feel really shitty. She has done so much for me and most of it never gets realised or appriciated that much. I told her a little bit ago that dad was being a jerk and wouldnt take me out of town to get some good stuff and not to expect much. She says its fine and that she knows I would like to get her more and thats all that matters to her. I gave her a hug and yet I still feel like shit. I would like to get her something physical to show how much I care. I know love and thoughts are just as good for her but I really want to show her how much I care for what shes done for me. So she gets a freaking coffee machine. My dad said it was a good idea beacause she has coffee every morning and that she needs kitchen sicors. I'm sorry, shit like that is not a good gift...
I feel terrible, this really sucks ass. |
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| Christmas blows |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|01:02 pm] |
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| | Rebellion-some band I dont know | ] |
Well as that merry time of the year approaches, it can just fucking suck my dick. Whats the good of this damn holiday? Sure its nice to give people gifts but its all just a waste of damn money and I never get anything I want. I was hoping to get an amp for my sound system this year, and even if thats it, I would be happy. However my mom just told me there wasnt any money again so we all got shit. You know, thats fine, its not about getting lots of shit but I really wanted that damn amp and it would serriously help if they got it for me. So once again, I get fucked out of a gift I want.
And christmas spirit can eat my ass too. I hear about robberies galore during christmas and all that stuff. What kind of spirit is that if everyone still goes around shooting each other, stealing stuff and just disrespecting everyone else. I'm nice 24/7 and when christmas comes around I try to be nicer but when I go shopping for gifts with thousands of assholes who stare at you or give you a dirty look when you smile at them or nod, you tend to get a bit pissed off. I have people pushing me aside so they can get through so they can get their crap and leave. Oh yeah, some good christmas spirit there alright. Some jerk tried to shoulder me to get me to move but he bounced into a wall. I'm a pretty big guy, 6'2 and 190 pounds so I laughed at him because by this time I was already sick of all the morons in that mall and started to just glare at random people.
So why does everyone say christmas is a time to be merry when all they do is rush through their shopping and glare at others who are being nice to them? It dosnt make any god damn sense to me. How about next time I go shopping I run around yelling "FUCK YOU ALL WITH A 10 FOOT LONG DILDO. FUCK CHRISTMAS!!! MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS ASSHOLES!!" and see how everyone likes that. You know what they would do? They would have the nerve to say *I* have no christmas spirit. Yeah coming from the assholes who cant understand that when someone smiles at you and tries to be merry THEY ARE IN THE GOD DAMN SPIRIT and instead of smile back they look away or give them a weird look.
What the hell has this world come to when people are no merrier at christmas? This is suppose to be the time of year we can just hang out with friends and family and stuff ourselves till were eight thousand fucking pounds with turkey and all the great food we get on Christmas. So what do I have to say about this christmas so far? It sucks. |
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| Idiots |
[Dec. 17th, 2004|10:40 am] |
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| | AGROVATED!! | ] |
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| | MChammer- Cant touch this | ] |
After spending another day on this planet with another billion idiots, I'm starting to get tired of it. All I ever get when I post on forums and look around at chats and stuff is fucking morons.
I just came off a forum talking about dragons and how people belive they exist. I started that one and had a poll for people to vote on. One guy says "I'm afraid Science can never truely prove anything, it only finds evidence to support theories so that they get accepted as correct, but theories can change and often do!" I first said that this is true. Then I changed my mind and said that science CAN proove, the only reason I didnt say so before was because I wanted to avoid a debate and then showed a link to animal planets kick ass show that they are going to have on dragons and prooving they exist/existed. You know what? Maybe I should have kept my mouth shut and just kept it to myself because I knew it was going to cause a debate. So he comes back now and says "oow, I stand corrected, 4 years of scientific training is obviously proven wrong by the animal planet. oh damn me and my honours degree in biology." NOW I'm pissed. So I say to him that animal planet and their team of guys with 15 years of background in the feild are clearly not as smart as you on this topic. I'm starting to loose my patients with this idiot now and hes really getting on my nerves.
NOW he comes back with an even smarter response!!! "The "animal planet"? hmmm oh yeah that channel with the awful "planets funniest animals"! wow, I bow down to their superior knowledge and intellect, if only I had the same. oh well, at least I have my worthless degree from a top ten university in the UK to fall back upon,
*sighs* Aren't I lucky "
WHAT THE FUCK DOES THEIR STUPID SHOW HAVE TO DO WITH THEIR SCIENCE TEAMS!!!! NOTHING!!!!! Does this guy pour acid on his brain every morning or is he just that god damn stupid? So now I say "lol. They hired this team dude and your points are worthless and completly unrelated. What does their crappy show on funniest animals have to do with their science teams? They hired a pro team of every science background and put them to work to try and scientifically proove that dragons exist/existed.
Secondly, we have never had any problem, why are you starting stuff now? All I did was simply state what I belive instead of keeping it to myself because I'm tired of always being shoved around by everyone else. You know what? I'm sick of everyone being an a$$ to me when all I'm doing is speaking my mind, weather you like it or not."
I am getting really tired of these people who always feel that they have to jump up my ass because I'm speaking my mind AND NOT SPEAKING IT OFFENSIVLY. I used to always hold back my ideas because I knew everyone else didnt like them and it would start a debate but you know what, I DONT CARE ANY MORE!! I'm tired of being pushed aside by these idiots. I dont enjoy debating and prooving these people wrong any more, it used to amuse me. Now it just makes me pissed off to know that these people area really THAT stupid.
Please, ignoor my horrible spelling, I'm too lazy to correct them all. The spell checker on this thing sucks, most have a little scroller on the word you got wrong to select it, here I gotta freaking hunt it down again. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2004|01:11 am] |
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| | I'm happy! | ] |
yay, my first post, Hurray! |
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